Thursday, September 13, 2012
Over a year and a half ago we were planning a trip to the Dominican Republic for my 30th birthday; I had to go shopping for new shorts, none of mine were big enough. By the time our trip came around.... I had to go buy 1 size bigger.
Today, I gave up the one size bigger, and fit nicely into the original "new shorts". Could have squeezed into them a few weeks ago, but I didn't want to wear them till they really fit. Now I may still be bigger than goal, but I'm headed in the right direction, and IT FEELS AMAZING!
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
I've never been the most athletic person. While I always loved the outdoors (especially hiking and horseback riding) - I've never been in that great of shape. (except for 3 months in high school when I was taking Tai Kwon Do twice a week.) My boyfriend on the other hand has always been jock - football, baseball, cross country; he was on all the teams!
Since I started exercising again and attempting to train for a marathon he kept telling me we should go the track so he can put me through a work out. We've been twice now. VERY HAPPY to report - I beat him, TWICE! Not trying to be mean, but feels kinda good. I was always the academic - graduating valedictorian, never the athletic one. And granted I've been working out while he has a very sedentary job, but it was fun to be the athletic one for a change.
Alternating sprints with slow jogs, I sprinted a total of 2 miles, and slow jogged another 2.5, he barely completed a mile. Between muscle cramps and being short of breath - he had to quit pretty early on. I was trying to be supportive and get him to even just walk (that's where I started) - but he's disappointed he's not in the shape he used to be. That it's not as easy for him as it used to be. Guess we're all getting older! But if I can get into shape and do things I've never done, I'm sure he can get back into it. Now we can both support each other!
Friday, August 31, 2012
The last few weeks have been tough ones.... physically, mentally, emotionally. Aside from being crazy busy at work, and trying to train for a 1/2 marathon, my "other dad" informed us all last week that he has decided not to do surgery, and not to do chemo or radiation. He has gone home on hospice.
During that week we'd made plans for dinner, we ended up having a picnic in his hospital room. Happy to report we ordered out, I checked the menu before for tasty yet point friendly options (there weren't many), and ended up only eating half my meal before feeling full/satisfied. YAY!
The following day we went to Del Mar Race Track to watch the ponies run. It's become a yearly trip with my boyfriend and his family. We all get dressed up in our fancy hats and have a wonderful day. This year I packed some healthy snacks and protein shake. I did dip into the salami, cheese, and crackers, but just a few bites. Was nice to be able to participate but still stay on plan.
Tuesday was when dad gave us the news. I just happened to stop by the hospital to visit, and everyone in my best friends family was outside the room crying. The nurse in me knows he's been getting sicker, we're really close - I've known this would be his decision for some time. Still doesn't make it easier to hear. I may be a critical care nurse, but it's so hard being family. After an emotional afternoon everyone decided to go to a gourmet burger joint for lunch. I've started carrying an apple in the car..... snacked on it during the drive over. I really wanted one of those burgers, and not to be the girl who only ate salad. So I did. And I ate only ate half of it, then saved the rest for later. With just a few fries for taste. Been so thankful I've started carrying a piece of fruit with me as a snack.
And last Fri night...... had a once in a lifetime experience. My boyfriend, cousin, and her boyfriend are HUGE Disney fans. After over a year of trying, I finally managed to get reservations to Club 33, a members only VIP restaurant in the park. We had pre-dinner drinks, bottle of wine, amazing food, and sipped port with dessert. It was a magical dream come true evening. And the best part, I didn't feel like I was missing out. I got to have a little bit of everything and it fit into my WW plan.
For me, this week was about really FITTING WEIGHT WATCHERS AND REAL LIFE TOGETHER. 8 months ago I'd of felt guilty for the those splurges, but now, I feel satisfied - knowing I can partake in real life and still lose weight.
I'm down 11.5 pounds in 6 weeks. I feel better, I walked past the bathroom mirror yesterday realizing I LOOK better - then danced happily around the kitchen all morning - earning more AP points! I CAN SOOOO DO THIS!
Monday, August 20, 2012
It's been a while hasn't it. Since my last post.... well a lot has happened. I had continued weight watchers till mid Feb... and was down a few more pounds, and somewhere my train got derailed. But the important this is, we have gotten it back on track, and are chugging strongly along.
Soooo much going on in life right now. A few weeks ago I was at the Pet Store happily comtemplating NOT buying any dog food for the dog we adopted in late May. While I love her to death, it had been a particularly bad morning. Aside from digging holes all over the yard, and destroying more of the BBQ cover, she actually chewed her way through a stake holding up a Bouganvillia plant, and then thru the truck. I was so angry - I wanted to kill her. After begrudingly buying her food since we were getting low I headed to Target to do some shopping for an upcoming trip - nothing fit, bigger sizes. In my frustration I'm planning my trip to ColdStone (because it's hot of course and ice cream would be nice)..... when I suddenly found my motivation again. That big light that comes on overhead and says "hey, you're eating your feelings again". Feels different this time. - That was 4 weeks ago.
I'm happy to report I've lost 8.5 pounds in the last 4 weeks. Not only am I working the program online, but have also joined the WW meetings, going on Friday mornings. While my boyfriend is supportive, it's nice to talk and be with people who TRULY understand. A few of the girls walk to the meetings, they've inspired me to ride my bike, or even run to the meeting on mornings I'm not just getting off work.
I've re-inspired my mom to try again. And so far.... I'm successfully getting through my "other dad's" sudden terrible fight with cancer. For an emotional eater - I have every excuse, but so far I've been holdling my own. To be honest, in some ways I really think it's helping, when I feel like there's so much I don't have control over (and being a critical care nurse I'm a control freak) it's nice to be in control of something. Especially when it's making me feel better at the same time. Here's to looking ahead!
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Just got back from a wedding weekend in Kansas City, my boyfriends sister just got married. It was a crazy, wild, and fun filled weekend with a lot of emotions and stress to go around.
It was a beautiful ceremony out in the forest, and very lovely weather for early November in KC. Unfortunately because everything was so far away - we took a limo bus (and got to see grandparents dancing on stripper poles), and there were schedule activities 5 days straight, I did not do so well with my eating for those days. Breakfast was ok for the most part, but all lunches and dinner were pre-ordered or pre-scheduled at gourmet burger shops, gourmet pizza, and barbeque feasts. Aside from vegetable platter on Sat between wine tastings (which I only took sips of) the closest thing to a vegetable all weekend was Cheesy-Corn (basically mac & cheese made with corn instead of pasta). Despite trying to eat in moderation - upon return of my trip I have used 61 more points then I'm even allowed via my weekly point balance. Wowzers!
I am however very happy to report that I exercised almost every day, and better then that, intentional exercise, not just the expected dancing at the ceremony. Thankfully the hotel had a gym that I made great use of!
As of this morning when I weighed myself - I am back up one pound - it is not my official weigh in day, and hopefully some of it is salt related. Today we get back on track, and work towards making up some of that ground over the rest of the week. Saturday we'll see where I really stand. But - it isn't every day your sister-in-law gets married, this is one of those weeks where life really hits you and you pick up and continue on your path. I vow not to let whatever that scale says get me discouraged. Sometimes you get thrown a curve ball, but it's how you play the whole game that matters not just that one pitch!
Friday, November 04, 2011
I've already mentioned the fact that I'm an emotional eater, the last week has been a real trial. Still on light duty at work, but over the last week I've been facing the fact that I may have to go on out on Workman's Comp, though desperately hoping my shoulder will heal in the next 6 weeks. Not sure how I'm gonna make the bills work - doesn't look I can continue working my second job either if that happens.. In addition the lady who is handling my case at work is so frustrating, she can't answer any of my questions and when she does she gives me the wrong information.
She's also responsible for assigning my light duty, I've been working on a very important project for another department but the educator of my department wants me to come do filing and paperwork. They've been shuffling me back and forth - and I have received an e-mail that said "you're mine, all mine". Really? I'm beginning to feel like a rag doll being dragged back and forth. More than anything I just want to go back to work. I miss my job and the people I work with. I miss making a difference in my patients lives. I've noticed I've been splurging more over the last week, still within my weekly limit, but it's getting close.
Yesterday I was at work for a CPR instructor class, I had been planning on staying a few hours after to work on that project. But I ran into the educator, she immediately asked if I was busy and how long I was there and if I could come do some work for her, and when I'd be there next week. Trying not to roll my eyes my told her I'd already put in my hours for the week and was headed home. Unfortunately there was an in-service going on in the nurses lounge, with lots of food including Halloween candy and brownies. I was so frustrated I dug in... when I realized what I was a doing a few pieces later I made a B-line for the door. Unfortunately I left in such a hurry I left all my instructor materials, hopefully they'll still be there on Sun when I go back.
It is a small victory that I realized what I was doing and headed out before I did more damage, and it really didn't make me feel better. But I can't wait for the day that I have control of those emotions and don't seek comfort in food. At least I'm starting to realize this in the process, hopefully that's one step closer to recognizing it before it happens!
Monday, October 31, 2011
We bought our condo a little over a year ago, last year we were in Ireland on vacation over Halloween. We've been looking forward to tonight for months, secretly I've been wary for weeks. We wanted to be the "good house" with the best candy.....
Unfortunately we didn't get nearly as many trick-or-treaters as we expected. But it was SO much fun. The kids were adorable in their little costumes. We have a lot of candy left over.
I ate two pieces - both my favorites, and minis; but they fit into today's points without going into my weekly points. I'm proud of me. Normally if I broke down and had one, I'd eat a hundred. Instead I decided on my two, and savored them. I think I'll set a couple aside for over the rest of the week so I don't feel deprived and have Brian hide it, take it to work, or burn the rest. I don't want to know!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Today was my first official weigh-in.... 2 weeks into the program. And I'm very proud to report - I've lost 6 pounds, 2.5 inches, and earned my first star - 5 lbs! How exciting, especially after going to Vegas. Looking forward to this week though, where I can spread weekly points out over the course of a week, instead of using them all in just a few days. Love that I had that flexibility though, that I could go to a place like Vegas and still be successful, really gives me hope for sticking with this!
I made a huge commitment to working out, think that was the key to my success. Speaking of which - time to go for my hike today. Brian and I are going to check out Wood Canyon. Hope your weigh-in is just as inspiring. Stick with it!
My weight loss
Thursday, October 27, 2011
FROM 10/18 - (can't seem to post blogs from my laptop... hmmm)
I hurt my shoulder at work a few weeks ago pulling a patient up in bed, ever since I've been on modified duty and riding a desk for 12 hours. It's been driving me insane, and has prompted many trips to the cafeteria where I inevitably come back with chocolate chip cookies (which of course are "cheaper" if you buy them in 3's). Since I started WW - I've been power walking during every one of my breaks and eating at my desk. I'm making it work!
My work also sponsors a weight watchers program and meetings, I discovered this week that almost all the selections have calories AND weight watcher points posted. AWESOME! No figuring out, you know before you make your selections. To be honest I'm not sure I ever visited the salad bar before, I've been twice a day since I started!
On a side note, I get home from work last night and my honey tells me he got bored so he decided to go for a run. He hasn't run in probably 8 years, doesn't work out, and rarely walks - he ran 2 1/2 miles straight. NO FAIR!! Takes me a month to work up to that. Apparently his inner athlete is a runner; pretty sure mine is a couch surfer and a competition eat - but we're gonna change that!
My weight loss
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Just got home from my weekend in Vegas, and I am happily reporting I stuck to WW, mostly....... Very thankful to have been staying in Brian's timeshare, our first mission when we arrived - hitting the grocery store. Bought enough fruits and vegetables to snack on, and some breakfast supplies. The only meal we ate out was dinner. I did drink at the tables.... quite a bit. Brian's contribution to the shopping cart was my favorite donuts - I had a bit of his, once, and that was it!
But I went to the gym every day - on Sunday we even drove out to hike Red Rock Canyon - very cool!
The result - I used all of my weekly alloted points during my trip - but didn't break into any of my earned activity points. As my week rolled over mid-trip, I also used this weeks extra points, so I must be vigilent the next few days. But the scale will tell the tale on Sat. Brian is also very thankful that we still got to have fun and go out, he was very concerned I was going to be so obsessed we wouldn't enjoy ourselves. We found a happy medium instead!.
My weight loss