Thursday, May 23, 2013
I'm about to do something I have NEVER done before: stick to my budget. Yes. I'm not big on denying myself things (or junk food, for that matter). But tomorrow is pay day, and I still have a few dollars in my bank account. My budget is biweekly, and I even have enough set aside to contribute to my monthly bills, like rent and insurance. I already paid my utilities bill. I have $1.67 in my Spending "envelope," and I can't wait until I can sweep that into my vacation fund. I'll be in Austin in no time.
I'm so happy I stuck to my budget. Switching it to a biweekly format changes how it's displayed, so instead of having my Rent envelope look like it's half full, it's all the way full! I'm excited to pay off my credit card, save for my vacation, and stick to my budget!
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Day 5 (without cola) is way easier than Days 1-4 have been. No headache. I'm good. I felt really, really weird on Monday, sweating, shaking, and headaching. This lead to an insane carb binge because you never know if maybe your body is flipping out because it's time for noms. I had a couple of potato rolls...man, are those guys great! I'm in the red now, but I'm dealing. There is nothing left to do but deal.
Also, I've rediscovered my love of peanut butter. I got wholly ripped off buying those "on the go" 1.5 ounce Jif peanut butter guys, but they are delish. I had one today (it was 7 Points Plus) with two bananas. I also had a Yoplait Greek yogurt (2 Points Plus). I'm doing way better today than I did yesterday.
My apartment is still quite ant-infested. Terminix is coming over to spray this afternoon. I am so over living there. My landlord is a jerk, and he's blaming me for the ants. He blames me for everything that goes wrong. When my heat was out for two weeks? He suggested I change the batteries. He is the worst. My lease is up in August, and there are very few places around here that accept dogs. I feel trapped There is a house about 15 minutes from work that is adorable. It has two bedrooms and a WASHER AND DRYER IN THE BASEMENT. Still, I'm hesitant to sign a lease because I am feeling the urge to roam...
Speaking of roaming, I'm planning a vacation to Texas soon! What are my must-visit places?
Monday, May 20, 2013
This is my third day Coke free! And it kinda sucks. Saturday, I woke up hung over (another habit I need to change), and I really wanted pop. I have a head ache right now. Work is where I do most of my pop consumption, and I've built a habitual can into my daily routine. I'm sipping on some green tea right now to get a little bit of caffeine. Bribing myself is working, though! I really want that big yellow Coach bag...and it will be mine June 16! I bought a new bra, too -- a reward for paying off my credit card.
Money has been on my mind a lot lately. There has to be a correlation between money and weight loss! And I can't let myself get discouraged and think, "FUDGE THIS!" because that is ridiculous and not what grown ups do. There are a lot of things I need to be saving for: emergencies (because I can't keep having my life ruined by the things that pop up!), clothes (because I really haven't bought anything of quality since I lost weight), vacation with Boy Friday, and moving. I'm not sure where I'm moving, but my lease is up in August, and my living situation is not what I want it to be.
Speaking of weight...I am seven pounds above goal! My pants are feeling a little tight, too. It's only seven pounds above goal, but it's 14 pounds above my lowest weight. I'm not trying to focus on weight, but I was very unhappy to pay to play this month. I tracked all weekend and bought healthy groceries last night. I have a lot of ideas for healthy meals and snacks, including slow cooker chicken tacos (six chicken breasts, 16 ounces of salsa, and a packet of taco seasoning on high for four hours). At the same time, I don't even want to cook in my apartment. My kitchen is infested with ants! So unhappy with my living situation...but so happy with my life situation.
Friday, May 17, 2013
Can't lie anymore. This Weight Watchers business is bringing me down in a big way. I'm not committed, so I eat over my points. Then I'm disappointed that I'm not committed, and I'm gaining weight. And focusing on my weight makes me feel like I hate how I look. So I need to make a change. I'm switching my focus from weight loss to health gain.
A big thing that's hurting me (quite literally right now -- I have stomach pains) is my pop consumption. I'm drinking a ton of it. So I'm bribing myself to stop. I bought a new purse, but I'm not allowing myself to have it until I'm 30 days pop-free. It will live at Boy Friday's house until then. I think I'm going to bribe myself for staying within my points with some new bras.
Goals for this new week:
1. Attend WW meeting.
2. Weigh, measure, and track.
3. Avoid alcohol; track it if I drink it.
4. No pop!
5. Stay within my points.
6. Wear a sleeveless shirt.
One thing that I've been doing awesome with is walking. Keeper, Boy Friday, and I have been taking long walks down by the lake.
It feels good to have a plan in place for this week!
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Hi, friends! Yesterday was great -- my first day where I was really on plan in a very, very long time. Today I'm thinking about two things: saving money and my pop addiction. I am really struggling with my finances right now, but I shouldn't be.
I have a job and a budget that allows me to save a good amount of money while still spending a good amount of money, but I just can't stick to it! Like I said yesterday, I feel like I'm experiencing a little bit of willpower fatigue. But I can't be broke like this forever. Yeah, my rent's high, but that doesn't mean I think fatalistically like that. So let me ask you: how do you stick to your budget? Do you have a favorite non-spending blog?
And as for the pop addiction...I need to just quit. Tomorrow is a new month in which to build new routines.
Monday, April 29, 2013
Just wanted you all to know that I'm doing something I haven't done in quite a while -- I'm researching the restaurant I'm eating at tonight and pre-tracking!
Monday, April 29, 2013
Sometimes I confuse anxious and hungry. It's happening right now. I didn't even eat that much for breakfast, and I know I'm not hungry, but I'm seriously battling the compulsion to reach for a Kashi bar or some Greek yogurt.
I think I need to distract myself. I need to take a little walk around the office and chat with some coworkers, then I need to sit down and take a few minutes to plan out my day -- work and non-work. I have some huge, interesting projects right now that I need to organize. I have some life logistics I need to figure out. For example, I'm getting an order from Zappo's today, but I sent it to Boy Friday's (yep, he's still around!) apartment because I ordered it on Friday, and I was going to be gone Saturday, and since I'm a VIP (on the Zap and IRL), I figured that it would be waiting for me when I got home Sunday, and I could quickly try on what I'd ordered and decide what to keep and send it back ASAP Monday. But...the package didn't come (I normally don't have any issues with this WINK). So now it's going to be delivered to his apartment sometime today, and I usually have it sent to work so I can get it faster. Anyway, now I guess I should stop by and get it at lunch, during which I will also try my goods on and walk my dog and put my laundry in the car. Then I will take what I don't want back to work, print a return slip, and prep it to ship. After work, I'm going to drop it at UPS, head across the street and quit the gym, and start my laundry at my parents'. Then I'm going to go home, change into work out clothes, get my dog, go back to my parents', switch my laundry, and walk my dog. Then I will run to the grocery store and pick up a couple things. Then I will just do laundry and relax until it's all done. Then I will go home and put the laundry away and shower and go to bed early. I can save sweeping my apartment and doing dishes until Tuesday.
Just typing out all that biz makes me feel better, but I still feel anxious. Time for that walk...
Monday, April 29, 2013
In order to lose weight, I need to give some things up. Unlimited fast food, pop, candy. I need to sacrifice, and that is hard for me to accept. It's hard for me to deny myself anything. I feel like I deserve it. But honestly, what I deserve is health and a long life. I deserve to feel comfortable in my body and in my clothes. I deserve to be proud of hard work.
I think what messed with my head a lot were the "effortless" ten pounds I dropped when I wasn't eating from emotional distress in January. It was the first time I'd ever lost my appetite, and of course not eating makes weight drop. I thought that everything else would be that easy, too, no matter how I was eating.
And it's not. I'm above goal by almost five pounds. I should have paid for April. I need to be honest with myself -- my goal of 145 pounds isn't small enough. I want to lose more. Even when I weighed in at my lightest ever (138 pounds), I still wasn't happy with how I looked.
Which brings me to my next point: I need to give myself a break. Yeah, I want to lose, but I've been doing it so long that my willpower is fatigued. I'm going to let myself eat 29 Points Plus each day this week. Also, I'm going to quit the gym. I haven't gone in forever, and it's a waste of money right now. I'm not a gym rat who can take several classes a day (and I can't compare myself to those who enjoy that). I'd rather be outside, getting fit with my pup.
So my plan for this week is to sacrifice and give myself a break. Those two actions seem like antonyms, but I promise, they're not.
And now, here is a post
I guest blogged for a friend. Read it! Secrets are revealed.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Hi. I miss you all so much. I've been really struggling with the plan, and I need to re-energize myself. It's really hard for me to struggle and also read your blogs, but connecting with all of you is what makes me want health and weight loss and greatness.
Here are the things that will make me successful:
Having healthy foods around
Weighing and measuring my foods
So I'm committing to all this. Again. We'll talk soon <3
Friday, March 15, 2013
Hi! Is anyone going to be in Chicago for St. Pat's? I AM. Let me know so we can meet up!